I've had a bad cold for the past few days. It is one of those colds that just drags you down, keeps you tired, and makes you look like you haven't gotten out of bed in days. I was supposed to hang out with Eli tonight, but I just can't get out of bed. Even though I'm sick and it isn't my fault I feel so terrible. I feel guilty for letting him down, and guilty for canceling on him. This got me thinking, in relationships, do we feel guilt for things we shouldn't? Do we feel guilt over things we can't control, because it is hurting the people we love?
To explain, if I had to cancel on one of my friends because of a cold, I wouldn't feel that bad. But, the fact that I'm canceling on Eli, and disappointing him, makes me feel so bad and like I'm doing something wrong. I think that these feelings go beyond just making someone feel bad. I feel like disappointing him is something I should feel guilty about. Why is that? People get disappointed every day in life. I shouldn't feel guilty over disappointing him due to something I can't control.
I encourage all of you to let go of whatever guilt you are feeling. If you are feeling guilty over something you can't control, do your best to remember it isn't your fault, and things will be okay. Until next time!