Every girl that has ever been broken up with dreams of the day when their ex will come back to them and say he made a mistake. We want our ex to miss us, and realize that we are who they want to be with. Many times, we feel this way because it will allow us to stop blaming ourselves for what happened. We think this will make us happy and confident again.
My friend, lets call her Olivia, was broken up with about 6 months ago. Her boyfriend left her completely out of the blue. She was heartbroken, and continued to have feelings for him for months. A few weeks ago, he began contacting her again. After catching up and getting on civil terms he ended up telling her how sorry he was, how he never wants to be without her, and how much of a mistake he made. When I heard this I was so happy for her, because I can only imagine how good this feels. After all, it is what I have been dreaming of for months.
I am going to be completely honest. I go to bed almost every night and wish that Max will call me and say he made a terrible mistake and wants to be with me again. I hope and pray that he will come back to me. I admit that I wish for this because it will make me feel better. In my mind, I think it would allow me to stop blaming myself for what happened (even though I know deep down I did nothing wrong) and be happy again.
I am happy for Olivia because I can only imagine how she is feeling. But at the same time I am terrified for her. I saw this guy break her heart so badly and I am scared this will happen again. I don't want to see my friend broken again.
This makes me question how I would feel if Max came back to me. I know I would be excited, but would I be able to go back to him? Would I be able to trust him to not break my heart? I really think the answer to that is no. I think that everyday I would wake up and be terrified it was going to end again.
This is why I feel that even though Olivia is "living my dream," she really isn't. Now I hope that it works out for her, but I don't dream about worrying everyday. I don't dream about being paranoid I will be left broken hearted again. Deep down, Max coming back to me is not my dream. My dream is that the pain I feel will magically disappear. Max coming back to me won't cure that. It would be like taking fifty steps backwards. The only way to really make my dream of feeling better again come true is time.
I hope this helps all of you on your journeys. Until next time!
My friend, lets call her Olivia, was broken up with about 6 months ago. Her boyfriend left her completely out of the blue. She was heartbroken, and continued to have feelings for him for months. A few weeks ago, he began contacting her again. After catching up and getting on civil terms he ended up telling her how sorry he was, how he never wants to be without her, and how much of a mistake he made. When I heard this I was so happy for her, because I can only imagine how good this feels. After all, it is what I have been dreaming of for months.
I am going to be completely honest. I go to bed almost every night and wish that Max will call me and say he made a terrible mistake and wants to be with me again. I hope and pray that he will come back to me. I admit that I wish for this because it will make me feel better. In my mind, I think it would allow me to stop blaming myself for what happened (even though I know deep down I did nothing wrong) and be happy again.
I am happy for Olivia because I can only imagine how she is feeling. But at the same time I am terrified for her. I saw this guy break her heart so badly and I am scared this will happen again. I don't want to see my friend broken again.
This makes me question how I would feel if Max came back to me. I know I would be excited, but would I be able to go back to him? Would I be able to trust him to not break my heart? I really think the answer to that is no. I think that everyday I would wake up and be terrified it was going to end again.
This is why I feel that even though Olivia is "living my dream," she really isn't. Now I hope that it works out for her, but I don't dream about worrying everyday. I don't dream about being paranoid I will be left broken hearted again. Deep down, Max coming back to me is not my dream. My dream is that the pain I feel will magically disappear. Max coming back to me won't cure that. It would be like taking fifty steps backwards. The only way to really make my dream of feeling better again come true is time.
I hope this helps all of you on your journeys. Until next time!