After my breakup with Max he would invade my dreams. I would close my eyes and there he was. His smile, scent, laugh, and presence was right in front of me. It felt as if he was in my room with me and none of the pain was real. I would wake up feeling so excited that he was back. I would feel healed; until I realized it was only a dream. That's when my emotions would crash, anxiety would rise, and pain would deepen. This happened constantly in the beginning. I began to get so scared when I went to bed. Every night I cried myself to sleep because I knew he would be there in my dreams, practically haunting me. I needed to escape him, the pain, and memories. This caused many sleepless nights and exhausting days. I prayed that Max would stay out of my dreams. I constantly wished that he would leave. For the first time, I really felt like I needed Max to leave me and I actually wanted him gone. I needed him to leave so I could recover.
These dreams made me realize that wishing he would come back was the worst thing I could do. The more I thought about him, the more I dreamed of him, and the more disappointed I got. I knew that I had to distract myself and get him off my mind. Every night instead of worrying about my dreams, I focused my mind elsewhere. I read a funny book or watched television. As I would fall asleep I would think of my book or the show I watched. This way they were the last things on my mind, not Max. After sometime this began to work. It was a slow process but eventually there was less of Max and more of happiness in my dreams. My dreams began to excite me again. I was able to happily escape the drama of the real world once again. I finally got my peace back.
If this is happening to you remind yourself over and over again that your ex needs to stay out of your dreams. Do your best to let him go and distract yourself. This way, you can close that chapter of your life and move on to a much happier one. You are not in this alone, and it does get better, trust me.
Until next time!